I'm sure when you see this picture you feel sick... But there are girls out there who look like this. I don't want to be a part of them.... I want to have a normal life... I want to live good, happy, thinking about the future, making new friends... That's the life i want.....

AND I WIIL GET IT....

I'm sick of the fact that i feel sorry for my self all the time... I meen who I'm I right?? i should think of other things. Not only for me all the time..Wake up Victoria!! life is not just a thought: i will eat? or not? that's just stupid..... i need to find the old Vicky and bring her back......

I still don't feel happy

I changed school i made new friends, everyday i try to change... But i can't. I always stay in the same, in the same place, the same dark place from which i can't find the exit.
I feel sad alone...i can't find hope.I don't know what i want anymore. I'm loosing my family I'm loosing my self..i hate me. i wish i was dead... I know what I'm saying you may find it stupid... But i believe in every single word i say..

feeling the need to change

In some point of our life we have the need to change. Not only fisycally but personally. I'm in that place right now.. I want to change the way i see things, the way i understand some facts.
But I can't find it possible. I don't feel strong enough . I sure did a pretty big step though. I've changed school and i feel very happy now... I'm making new friends. I've started to trust people and thats very important.I hope all the year will continue like this...

the way i see my self

I don't have a good opinion about my self... i hate the way i look.. I can't find any positive thing about my personality or my looks.... I'm so........ sad....i just wanna cry all the time... i need someone, i need help... i need to talk.. i need my family... i want to be happy again.. Because right now I'm just sad, scared, alone, afraid of the present, afraid of the future..
I'm looking for the light that is going to make me see... But for my bad luck i can't find anything.. All i see is dark, I can't even see my self..
I need to know that I'm not alone into this trip... I need to know that someone is there with me too... Right now even if i know that my family supports me..i still feel all by my self... I don't know....
I'm not ok......

Everyone thinks is so easy.....
they all believe it's so simple...
No one can understand that is so difficult

we don't know what we kneed
do we kneed a hug?
a kiss?
NO

oUR LiFe is ruind..

that's what we all think in the first place...


But is there something we can do?


I believe there is...... we all just have to HOPE....

I need you to know.....that we'll be ok

together we can make it through, another day

I need you to know......... that we are not alone.....

we have one another,

we have each others world

i kneed you to know....... that we'll be OK....

together we will make it through another day


because we are strong...... we are not alone.....


we have each others love.....that's what we all fighting for...

Yet another welcome post.

Hello all,

This is a blog created by myself to write thoughts that run through my mind every now and then. Specifically this blog will be dedicated and hopefully reach all those people that suffer from any form of anorexia.

Please feel free to discuss with me any kind of related topic that may arise in the future.

Regards,

Vicky