the way i see my self

I don't have a good opinion about my self... i hate the way i look.. I can't find any positive thing about my personality or my looks.... I'm so........ sad....i just wanna cry all the time... i need someone, i need help... i need to talk.. i need my family... i want to be happy again.. Because right now I'm just sad, scared, alone, afraid of the present, afraid of the future..
I'm looking for the light that is going to make me see... But for my bad luck i can't find anything.. All i see is dark, I can't even see my self..
I need to know that I'm not alone into this trip... I need to know that someone is there with me too... Right now even if i know that my family supports me..i still feel all by my self... I don't know....
I'm not ok......